Damn it

I'm sure most of you will think this is ridiculous, but going to New Zealand was a bad choice.  It was an amazing experience, and I got to see some incredible things and meet some great people.  But in the grande scheme of things I screwed myself over by going.  Before leaving I had one of the best jobs a student could get; they now refuse to take me back.  None of the other places I've applied bothered to do so much as let me know I didn't get the job (thanks UPEI, I hate you).  Now I'm unemployed, don't even have enough money to buy deodorant, and haven't even started to pay back my debt.  I'm guessing this is one of those things I look back on with fond memories, but for now, I'm less than stoked.